I AM Beautiful

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I am beautiful

I have to tell myself this, because if I don’t, I will believe the lie of the enemy that I am not.

I am beautiful

I have to say it often, so that I can drown out the voices of society that tell me otherwise.

I am beautiful

I have to believe it and not just say it. What is the point of not believing the truth God has set before me.

Yet, is it that simple? Not for most of us. I wish believing my worth felt like a stroll through the field of daisies that God covered with beauty.

But It feels more like a battlefield in my mind? Or for some, it feels like a beautiful truth that doesn’t apply to us.

A lot of people don’t even realize that they do not see themselves as beautiful, desired or worthy, until the opportunity presents itself to come face to face with that fact.

I have spoken to a lot of “ Drop Dead Gorgeous” people who do not see their own beauty.

I have so many friends and family members who do not see that the image they were created in, was beauty.

The journey to knowing, truly knowing that we are beautiful, takes some serious alignment with the identity God has already given us.

We walk around wearing the wardrobe that the world has given us; these name brands like Insecurity, Ugly, Unworthy, Undesired , Not Enough, or Not them.

We probably don’t even realize that our insecurities are the endorsements of the enemy's lies.

Those thoughts that you have towards yourself , about not being beautiful , desirable , worthy and the list goes on, are lies from the enemy.

And guess what? We look in the mirror everyday and repeat those lies to ourselves.

As we repeat them, we begin to believe them. Think about this, we did not come out of the womb thinking we were ugly and not good enough ( even though some babies do come out a little alien like, but that is besides the point) .

No, the world told us there was a standard that we did not meet and we started rehearsing this thought in our minds until it became a part of our being.

We changed ourselves to appease that standard. We became more aware of the eyes of the watchers. And now we live in a state of great pressure, hatred toward ourselves, envy of others, unbelief in what God created and lost identity.

We are in a constant cycle of feeling unworthy, undesired and unbeautiful, and it's a cycle we were never meant to be in. This cycle started way back when Eve decided to question the integrity of God. She allowed a snake to convince her that there was a possibility of a lie hidden in God’s truth and we are repeating the same horrible mistake today.

It’s the same lie that would tell a single mom that she is not worthy of the love of a good man, because her past has scared her beauty.

It’s the same lie that would tell those of Asian descent across the world, that their creamy yellow skin is not beautiful and needs to be whitened.

It’s the same lie that would tell my beautiful sister, with enchanting hazel brown eyes, that she is not desirable.

It’s the lie that would tell black women and men that their hair and skin color makes them a lesser beauty.

It’s the lie that would tell women that their body is meant to be on display for the whole world to see, because their body’s worth only lies in the lust of the eye.

It’s the same lie that is telling this generation that they are only desired if they lay in a bed with the intent of giving their body to another.

This lie has caused men and women to not be satisfied with who they are, so they seek to be each other to try to find some sense of a beautiful identity.

This lie leads some to suicide, and some to sickness.

It’s a lie that would lead some to undertake surgery after surgery, to manipulate their bodies to fit a standards that they do not know who set.

Have you ever stopped and wondered who set the standard that is driving us insane? Have you ever thought that this world's standard of beauty is actually a part of the lie of the enemy?

I’m tired of us trying to live up to a standard that was not meant for us.

The thing is folks, beauty is in the eye of the beholder and the beholder is God.

While I was in my mother’s womb, He already whispered the words, “Beautiful” in my ear.

Once He said it, it became true. Nothing can counteract that truth and nothing can make God’s truth a lie.

To tell you the truth, I believe what God said about me. I believe , truly believe, that I am beautiful and I will not apologize for it.

Yes to the World, it would seem that my beauty has nicks and dents.

Would it be considered beautiful for a woman to have a beard or a mustache?

Because I hate to burst your bubble, but my dad had to teach me how to shave my beard correctly the other day, so as not to get ingrown hair bumps.

Would it be considered beautiful to have extra jelly around your midsection?

I have been working out consistently and regularly for a year now and I love the way it makes me feel, but I still have a punch where I was told I needed a six-pack.

Why do I have to believe that I have yet to reach“ Where the Fione Resides” until my six-pack arrives. That is a hefty fee just to get to the destination of “Fione”.

Let me tell you a secret, the world wears a garter, and then points out your belly fat. Then you spend the rest of your life comparing yourself to the world.

I had to get out of that cycle. God started to take the scales off my eyes and I saw the light and it looked like freedom to me.

So I fought back against the lie of insecurity. I used the weapons of God’s truth to fight with.

I looked in the mirror everyday and instead of regurgitating the lies of the enemy, I began to speak the truth to myself.

“Moriah, You are beautiful!”

I would repeat this, other statements and God’s word over and over and over again, until I started to believe it.

After a while, I looked in the mirror and saw a very beautiful woman. She was Fione!!

Just to clarify, It’s not perfect. Those lies still try to creep up , but I am ready and armed for them. I wish an enemy would!!!

I’m still on the journey , especially in the area of feeling desirable ( particularly to a man ….hmmm). Also seeing my body as beautiful, just the way it is. But God is with me and we are a force to be reckoned with, so those lies better watch out.

So I have a question for you :

Are you beautiful?

This is a question that you need to ask God; and whatever answer He gives you , take it to the bank because it’s the truth.

Once you have that answer, protect it with all that you have, because there will be many who will come to take it away from you.

I am praying for you Royals, that you would know your worth and your beauty. It is so important, but I also know how hard it is.

But do not fear, God is with you. He will help you and strengthen you to see His truth above every lie. He will not fail you.

He is not afraid of your insecurities so bring them to Him. He is willing and able to go on this journey with you, so buckle up.

I am excited for that moment , when you too look in the mirror and say:

I am beautiful!

Your Beautiful Royal,

Moriah Scott